Saturday, December 30, 2006

Morning on the bridge

An experience:


Here I stand on a stone bridge at seven o’clock on a misty winter’s morning. Looking out over the river. I am surrounded on all sides by a thick curtain of fog. My world, alone, intruded upon only infrequently by a passing car. Grey night turns to day as the car approaches, the piercing headlights illuminating my solitary universe. Then all turns to sunset as it passes, the red tail-lights completing one short day. The metallic hum and roar of this artificial sun grow distant quickly in this blanket of fog, soon out of hearing as if it had never passed this way, returning me to my private island of night and my own thoughts.

My mind soon slows as I stand shrouded in this personal world, apart from the everyday reality. All troubles and distractions seem distant and removed. I use this feeling of calm detachment to meditate. Here on this bridge feeling the low cloud above me and the river below, letting their flows ease my mind into a calm state. A great feeling of peace and quietude comes to me. Thus I stay for some time until the outside world catches my attention once more.

I look about myself at this normal setting turned beautiful through the medium of fog. The street lights float in the sky as balls of luminous cloud. The river lies still as ice whilst the mist rolls over like water. The silhouette of trees is pierced by rays of light which trace paths of fire through the smoky air. The air itself is still and I hear no rustling in the trees. In fact, I hear no sound at all from the ducks I know live under the bridge, neither do I hear distant cars on their way to work, alarm clocks waking people to their day nor even any of the number of morning people who are out and about at this time delivering papers and milk or cleaning the streets.

This world has stopped. My breathing, the rustle of my clothes and my footsteps are the only sounds in existence. I feel as if this whole world is a dream, something illusory which we choose to live in and experience so as to learn and grow.

My breath fogs in front of me and I realise that I am cold. Yet I do not feel deadened or numbed by this cold, rather invigorated, renewed. The damp air has settled on me, washing me clean, waking me up to the reality of this world once again. Sensation reminds us that we are alive and that we exist for a reason so I shall go back into the world and live but carry this knowledge and feeling of otherness within me.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Old -> New


K'UN - The Receptive

"Bear with things as the earth bears with us: by yielding, by accepting, by nourishing."

Yule - Shortest day; longest night. The beginning of the return.

Darkness - light rising. A turning point of the year. Time to plan for the future. What will be?

Old -> New

It seems that things that had been planned are no longer the plan. Things change and so must we. The plan may have been a stepping stone or a guide for what may be. Symbolic rather than actual. Now is the time to flow, accept and steer cautiously.
Holding on to a past Idea will only cause suffering and misery. Graciously accepting the way things are will allow you to live fully and make what you can with what you have.

Quote: Do what you can, with what you have, where you are. - Theodore Roosevelt

Live life now. There is no other time.


Thursday, December 14, 2006

Blogs, Writing and All

"Blogging 'set to peak next year'

The blogging phenomenon is set to peak in 2007, according to technology predictions by analysts Gartner.

The analysts said that during the middle of next year the number of blogs will level out at about 100 million.

The firm has said that 200 million people have already stopped writing their blogs."
BBC NEWS

Reading that makes me have to write something to show myself that i am not bored .. just really busy..

What with my Lady here and lots of gifts to buy plus work and sleep, leaves little time for me to write reflections upon life and my day.
And yet that article has spurred me on.
Good for them:)

Have recently joined The Writers Bureau and am all excited about it.
Another thing to fill my time up with! It will, however, mean i must practive writing more. Therefore i shall be updating this blog under the guise of study.

Have been thinking about this world and how it is perfect in its imperfections. How it makes complete sense in its paradoxes:)
Understanding these unknowable things is the trick ...

Feeling the unthinkable,
Ballancing opposites,
Uniting sepparates,
All is one.

Or we could just go and watch TV..... Stop these disturbing thoughts, i want to get off the round-a-bout.

All or nothing. Take your pick.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Update

Ok I have been slack on my blog.....
A whole hoast of things have happened and I have been busy living rather than writing about it but now i have a spare half hour to put a few things down for anyone who still reads this!

Not sure i have much of a readership but still ... This blog is for my benefit aswell.

Ok since last I wrote I have hada great night out with Adriana where we met "Minty".
He is a psychic medium and very interesting to talk to.
A little bit of drama when all the lights in the house went out and we had to fumble around in the dark with fuses and candles:)
A day where I was in charge of my department... Everything went well... no big problems.
Shopping. Worrying about Presents for people.. Getting back to Work.
And fun with trains and busses which seem to disregard timetables.
Adriana has started her new job and it sounds that there is a lot to organise but she gets to call all the shots and do it her way which, listening to her talk about how the place was run, it really needs.

I haven't been checking the site much or chatting on MSN either ... but if you had as great a girl as i do, i think you would be a little lax in that department aswell.

OK thats my update for now.. catch you round.

Friday, December 01, 2006

Adriana Land

Am writing this now so I don't get all hassled for being a lazy blogger before He comes home:) Y'know what though? If I was someone else watching me just recently I'd feel sick. It is kinda sickly when someone is so happy and in love (shhh). It's funny how perfectly everything has worked out, but I think when things are 'right' then everything else just fits how it should, things shouldn't have to be difficult. Had been here like 5 days (including the weekend may I add) and I got offered the job I really wanted, which was as it turns out was the first job I applied for. Get to be a Manager now instead of Assistant Manager, can't wait. So, I start that on Wednesday, will be nice to get a routine, don't think I'd be much good at playing housewife somehow, I need to be stimulated through my job as much as through other things :) Saying that though, I have been enjoying having lil afternoon naps.

So far have not got lost, though I feel that buildings keep moving, I misplaced the post office this morning. I was wondering the other day when..../if..... things would hit me, all this change, new place, new everything, new life, but it feels right. It feels like I've been here for ages actually, arriving from the train just a week ago seems craziness.

Now that I've done an update post your scheduled programme of occult type posts will re- commence, wether you appreciate it or not:)

Also, blatant plugging, but seriously, come and visit this friendly occult community of mine.